(((GREENLEAVES))
It seems whether online or IRL I act so inappropriately @ times.
I am always causing trouble wherever I am because my mind really doesn't process things with the perception they should be received.
I often feel like I am going to be abandoned so instead of waiting for that to happen I will often do something so horrible to try and either 1) Get negative attention or 2) Run away before they can say they have left.
So, I know what you are talking about.
It is horrible. And always I regret things after I can calm down and think a bit more rationally.

Hang in there....