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Originally Posted by treehouse
I know that for ME, the things I need to say are much bigger, scarier, more pathological, more "bad" then they actually end up being when I say them out loud. We judge ourselves so harshly, you know? And that judgment gets all mixed together with fear and the next thing we know, we're stuck in the same place we've always been. SO hard.
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Treehouse is SO right about this, Pachy. I heard it again yesterday myself.
Sometimes I get the feeling, in therapy, that T and I are working on the same tapestry, set on uprights between us; only I am working on the reverse side of it, where all the threads are knotted and crossed, and look confused and don't make any sense, but she's on the side where she can see the pattern as the work progresses, and she's satisfied with it.
One of these days, when we are "done", or maybe even before that, I am going to run around to the other side and see if I can get a look.
I am very much hoping that we are working on something beautiful, even if it is taking a long time.