I feel guilty posting something like this, and for having these feelings. I think they are due to my extreme need to be validated by others, so it's related to my self-esteem. I hesitate to even say what the problem is, and I don't know who is going to read this. People from the PT forum will think I'm selfish.

The problem is that my session this week with my T was about the most amazing session I've had in 15 years of therapy with 5 different Ts! I posted about it and got some responses. Fine. But I want more. I want to keep talking about the experience, so I post more in my own thread. It's still going down the page. That depresses me. I even posted that I wanted to keep it on page 1 so I could keep the session alive.

I know that other's problems and new threads take precedence over my selfishness. Not being responded to by more people should not be a relection on me or my self-esteem. I shouldn't have to share my experience anyway. It's between my T and me, but instead I want to share it with the world, and have the world validate my feelings. Many people have read my thread, but I don't get comments. Maybe people think it's wrong that my T held my hand but don't want to say. Or they're jealous?

I need to not need the validation from others, but I do. I feel so selfish for posting this. I don't want to beg for the validation. I want help so I don't feel like I NEED it.