Thanks guys. The storm passed and I was sort of okay. But I work in a psychological clinic and am applying to PhD programs in clinical psychology, so I actually do think people around here know when someone is triggered, and are perceptive enough to know what the trigger might have been. So, they probably know

After work, my good friend from work and I went out to grab some food. And I was in so much distress about today, I just needed to talk. So I started talking about how I don't think I can treat PTSD or even do assessments on people with PTSD because I just get too upset about things. She wasn't one of the people who saw me freak out. I was trying to tell her, no, I mean, I REALLY get upset about these things.. and finally I just spilled the beans and told her I have PTSD. She already knew about one thing that happened to me in my freshman year of college, only because it's the only way I can honestly explain to people why I left that school. But she didn't know I still had PTSD.

She's such a good friend, and she was trying to reassure me that she understands why I'm still messed up about things that happened, but in the process, she triggered me bigtime by saying, "Sex is so sensitive anyway. I mean, you're naked and vulnerable..." And I just lost it and started sobbing right in front of her. Wow.

I am so embarrassed.