Pain is a funny thing. I don’t mean that your being in pain is something to laugh about. But almost every person who was actively addicted to whatever that I ever met, was in a great deal of pain at the end of their active period.

The funny (read peculiar) thing is the pain you feel is the catalyst for change in your life. We don’t change something as fundamental about ourselves as our addictions if we weren’t in so much pain that we were willing to do anything to make it stop. Some call it the gift of desperation.

I was told that the pain I felt was God’s gift to me. It was the only thing that cut through the fog of denial.

I don’t care if you are 17 or 107, you can take a bus to the meeting. Find a young peoples meeting, and get there.

Here’s an idea. Tell your parents the truth!

At any rate, the pain you feel now ain’t squat compared to the pain you will feel. This business of active addiction never gets better in it’s own, only worse. I guess that’s God’s gift as well.

Keep coming back here, it’s better than alone, but a recovery group is a better idea still.

Richard