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Old Jul 29, 2010, 07:06 PM
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Originally Posted by pachyderm View Post
Of course. (My mother told us that she would "break" us. Or at least break our spirits.)

Let me tell you something that happened in one of the first nights of my breakdown: I wrote out a note and left it by my bed at night before going to sleep. I wrote what my name was, who I was. I did this because I was afraid that when I woke up in the morning maybe I would not be there -- I would have been "replaced" by another person. That would probably be the person that "everyone" seemed to want, a person who had all the standard, accepted ideas, the person that I could never be, the person that I was not. Someone who would discover me in the morning would at least have a clue if I left a note who I was. Because "I" would be gone.

Such things are really possible. Ever heard of amnesia? I believe that it could happen, after having that experience. I do remember very little of my childhood. It still always lurks in the background as a possibility -- that such a descent into madness could happen again.
IDK why but this struck me in a terribly sad way...(((Pachy)))
Thanks for this!
pachyderm