I have been struggling with depression, and bad OCD, so far I have been able to hide it from others, but I am worried it will start to show soon. I need work and really want one at Sears that I am up for, so please send me your well wishes for that! I haven't drank or taken anything I shouldn't. I also haven't SI'ed or attempted anything. So for now, I am hanging in there. I suppose if I don't get the job, things will really go bad. I have my second interview on Saturday morning. I hope I get it, I really need the money. It might help with the depression too, gettingout of the house and being active might really help.

My T is gone for two more weeks. I see her on Aug. 12. I am fearing now that something will go wrong and she won't be back, or might never come back! I don't know what I would do if that happened. I can;t think about it right now, the urge to do things is too strong. I need all my strength to fight it. Thank you everyone for the support and concern.