Queen, I empathize, I seem to be my very own depressive trigger as well that SUX, my hypomania? No idea what could trigger it, I wake up like that...

How am I supposed to control things that are seemingly non-existent/completely beyond my control?

I need a magic pill. Think I may have found 1 for the depressive (Risperidone), but stupid medical aid is making wait AGAIN so I've been without it for a few days...ugh

Guess I have no choice but to see how deep the rabbit whole goes
Wish me LUCK!!!