Thank you to all who replied. Many good ideas, that I will try and see out to gte me fixed. I cant answer questions individually right here but I havent seen many either.

Suga, a psychiatrist in the military dx'd me as bipolar II which in turn made me not make it thru as I was too bad off to even finish.

I was seeing a T but no longer as he made me very angry and I havent talked to him sense, as he told my family what was going on with me. Though it might have been best.

I hope you all have a great day and that today goes better than yesterday.