I know how it feels, some days it is harder than others,
So I send you a huge encouragement to keep on facing those disturbing thoughts. Dont be afraid of them ..challenge them, the best road to overcome these is to not try and resolve the issue...(as my therapist suggested) let your brain get used to accepting that they are only thoughts....

I know easier said that done...... I have been there..every day.......
however you have to optimistic even when it seems that there is no way out....that the beauty of faith......
faith in the unknown.