I am so glad someone wants to be with you and give you the friendship you are so obviously worth. even some of your family cares for what ever reason enough to try to contact you. You might not want to take them up on it, but they are looking.

I have read your comments to others and exchanged words on some other forums, and I can say that while your parents were addicts, drunks, and did not plan you, neither does the oyster plan a pearl. I don't even think the oyster can see the beauty that it, a pretty ugly beasty in it's own right, has produced. You have ended a nasty cycle of drugs and violence. You are facing your own pain like a real woman, or you wouldn't be writing here. You are unplanned, but a beautiful, caring addition to this world. You are probably the best days work your folks have ever done in their lives. They don't realize that, but we, and others around you, do.
Don't discount the light that shines on and from you, Evening. HUGGGSSSS.