LIfe sucks and the situation that you are in is truly a terriable one and all you have to do is just ask your fiance for the cash or if he doesn't have it just apply for a social grant or try sumthing, cause not to be rude or anything so please don't take this the wrong way but sitting at home won't solve anything you have to make a plan and get the help that you need, hoping that all goes well for you in the future so ya peace out and good luck with it all.