I'm so sorry for what you are going through....but if you flip the side and think about it, you were able to have all those loving feelings in your heart again...and that's amazing....just unfortunately, this time you chose a wrong person....I just want you to know that there is nothing wrong with you and you did nothing....It's all on his side...and the best thing to deal with him is just leaving him alone....He will come back to you....

take care
Marjan