Well, same difference. I think it is perfectly normal to search for a few clues. I didn't go to his appartment (don't even know his address, coz I didn't try to find out) to check out his car. So I don't see when by behavior could have been considered stalking. He gave me countless clues as to where I could find him. I never acted upon them, because if he wants to see me, he should say so.
But I can't act as if I was indifferent. Besides if I had found something, it would have helped to move on. So I almost wish I had, but there was nothing, so I was still clueless. Yet, enough is enough. He had some excuses until now, but not anymore.