Last night was a bad night for me. Typically when things get bad I go into awful rages. And last night I just did not want to go down that path. So instead I drank and took some pills. Just enough to calm me down. I know it's a dangerous mix. It's my way of being safely self-destructive. Oxymoron I know.
I am a mess. I am barely hanging on. I wish there was an easier way to communicate with the people on here. I have not figured it out yet. Good news...I made it through another day.