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Old Jul 30, 2010, 10:41 PM
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Originally Posted by lilred3382 View Post
Have any of you ever gone thru the periods of time where all you wanted to do was spend money?

Im at that point as I have had a horrid month and I just wanna buy me some new things to make me feel better. However, IM pissed because my coworkers took my credit cards and everything from me so I wouldnt spend any money. They arent understanding that its not stuff I need but I want. I WANT I WANT I WANT!!! I been trying to fight the temptation, but its winning over me as I have credit cards that they dont know about and I keep applying for me.

I been in a few lawsuits for this before sad to say, and I sadly see it happening again. It just makes me feel better.

I did manage to buy my 5th MP3 player.

How am I supposed to react to them being so controlling over me and taking my stuff and not letting me spend my money.

Oh yeah..almost quit my job again too...sigh....

I WANT I WANT I WANT I WANT!!
I have a $68,000 consolidation loan that I had to get a year and a half ago because of over spending on "stuff" within a time frame of less than a year, so I can truly relate. The spending for me can be part of hypomania, BUT I was also spending when I was happy, sad, stable etc. etc. I used stuff to try to "fill" me up. It doesn't work. It will never work. I would recommend speaking to a therapist to help find the root of your need to spend. For me it can be a sign that I'm lonely, sad, anxious and I don't want to feel those feelings, so my spending helped me stuff them. That doesn't work either and eventually you need to feel the feelings. I wish you luck and you may want to look into over spenders anon.

Do I still get the urges to spend? Hell yeah, but it's way less than before and I have my therapist to thank for that. A loan repayment of $1300.00 / month also helps with curbing the urge because it's a constant reminder of the mess I got myself in.
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