Possible trigger, just to be on the safe side.

I've been pulling my hair out since I was 11. I stopped about a year ago, but a few months back I started pulling again. My hair pretty much covers it, since it's on the back of my head, but if I was to put my hair up in a ponytail or push it to the side it would be noticiable. I'm so ashamed I let it get to this point.

Today was bad...sigh. I got the tweezers and started pulling out the hairs that were starting to grow back and I couldn't get by myself. There went all hope I had for it growing back. Just a few minutes ago I tried to pull some of the hairs I couldn't get a grasp on, which led to me picking my head so now it's going to form a sore. Just perfect...

I don't know why I can't stop again. What's wrong with me?! I can't do anything right! I never can... I just can't stand myself anymore.

I don't know why I'm like this...I don't mean to be. It's just something that happens-something I can't stop. I wish people were more accepting. I'm so afraid one of the few I actually care about will find out and not want me anymore.

Today just wasn't good for me, a lot of feelings building up. I suppose I just needed to vent a little, sorry.