>>I can't handle this alone.

Well then it is a good thing that you are not alone, Yack... We are here.

{{{{{{{{[Yack}}}}}}}}}

I know you can probably use help with this IRL but we are here for encouragement and support.

Don't "predict" what is going to happen. That is a bad trap for people with depression. This may turn out OK. Assuming the worst will eat up a lot of your available energy that could be used toward healing.

Easier said than done, I know... But let us remind you.