i know what you mean but it will be hard not worry. she is my mom and i love them but i can not deal with this anymore or have my kids deal with it too. my son who is 10 been with them the longes and he doesnt understand and my girl who is 3 see them in the picture but dont know them that good. the last time they where here was last christmas and they didnt want to be here. everytime they are here they have long faces and put down my things. when i had my son my mom and sister didnt want to visit me in the hospital i saw it on their faces and then when i was in the hospital for a month waiting to give birth to my girl they didnt want to be there too. they didnt even show up the day she was born. so much has happen and so much was told to me. i seen how i was treat over and over and i seen things that make me ask why. i remember one time i went with my mom to visit my sister at her work. and my sister didnt even care i was there. i was so pee. and now my mom turn to me and said that there will be no christmas gifts coming my way from her and my sister for my kids only christmas cards. that is all bs. my mom said because she has to get back on her feet and my sister just bought a condon. that is all bs. because i am tring to get back on my feet find work and i have a condo to pay off too and bills and buy a new car but guess what i aways make sure the kids all the kids get a christmas because that is what christmas is about the kids and spending time with the family. Manny said it is a way of not coming to visit or asking us to go down and visit. i was pee at that too. what kind of bs is that.

but you are right. my hubby and my kids are my family and what my hubby said that i should go around those who love me and care even if it means they are not my mom and sister. my hubbys family and my best friend. i just feel like i am a bother to everyone a bother to my mom and sister and her kids. i feel my kids a bother too. my friend said the kind of love i am getting from my mom and sister is not the kind of love i need. and she is right. maybe i should have not open my month to my mom and said how i felt then maybe we would be talking and all that. but then my hubby said that he saw it coming he saw this fight coming. over the years of hurt and pain i guess it would have come one day.

i hope you are right about ease a bit because i hate feeling this way. thanks.