nycurl, yes it's awful when we're at that space of self medicating. I'm, not going to evangelise but I thought I'd mention I'm an 11 years sober member of AA as well as being Bipolar and having Panic and Anxiety Disorders and PTSD and mild OCD too.

You didn't mention your regular habits with booze and pills so all this that I'm saying might be irrelevant if what you did is a one-off. If it's a one-off definitely speak to your GP or psychiatrist and get some help that way. If it's a regular thing you might like to have a look at AA. I was a big drinker for 18 years from 14 to 32. Having a substance abuse history as well as Mental Illness makes me a Dual Diagnosus - both parts are life threatening and each can lead to death and the two together causes much more risk.

I needed to get sober to get the clarity I needed to realise I had serious mental illness - for some people it's the other way around. And then I could deal with both. Anyway, AA is the best thing that ever happened to me. Just a thought.