I am sooo depressed today . I wish I could go somewhere and bawl my eyes out . It so hard to hide how I feel. I keep telling myself I have to be strong for my kids. To make things worse my kids are all excited because today is my birthday. I just want to hide away somewhere. I don't know what I'm going to do if I keep getting worse. I need my husband here. I can't keep my emotions bottled up, but I can't let my kids know I'm a total wreck right now.