, Lauru. Please take care, I know it is so hard, but please do, ok? Thinking of you.

Vjdragonfly, Birthday Greetings to you! (I know how jangly traditional greetings can sound when we're feeling not right. Holidays too.) Just so you know, I had a similar time a few years ago... In the midst of a massive and very long lasting depression, my ex had to go out of state for work. Way out, not at all driveable. Was supposed to be 3 months, turned into 9. At the time, I'd only recently been misdiagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder, and given ADs, which was a disaster, at the same time as effectively being thrown into single parenthood. Not fun. I sooooo feel for you in this, and just wanted to let you know that you are not alone.

Today (and last night too), I've been in kind of a weird space. Kind of down and I'm trying not to let it worry me overmuch. Have decided to go downtown and do something completely different as a diversion and hopefully to switch the energy. (Btw, I didn't get that job and am trying to tell myself that I'm ok with it and that it's not playing into this feeling, but I don't entirely believe it. My current "mantra" --if you will-- is that these rejections are protecting me from something I can't handle about the job that I just can't see from here and keeping the way open for the right one. It seems the only way to ride it out at this point.