I'm sorry to hear that.
What about regular use of something else, like guided imagery or autogenic relaxation?

I have a CD from www.wholeperson.com (scroll down to the categories when the page comes up and go to "relaxation audio & video") called 'Warm' and 'Heavy'. One track is 'Warm' and the other is 'Heavy', both are autogenic relaxation exercises and I love them. I also have "Relax...Let go...Relax" and "Natrual Tranquilizers" and I enjoy those too. I especially like the "Soothing Colors" on the Natural Tranquilizers CD.

I hope you get responses that are more helpful !