thank you all for your kindness and advice. i don't know when i will start to feel better...i'm still totally devastated, sick to my stomach and hopeless. i just don't know why i have to attract these kind of men. why if they have these issues did they have to come into my life at all. i don't need it and don't want to fall in love with someone who doesn't have it figured out but that is all i seem to attract.