i don't have any close friends.i don't have a boyfriend.been single for over a decade.my family treats me like ****.plus i attract guys who i don't like.plus i have not worked in 5 and half years.so at times i feel like a loser.plus i'm pissed off,angry etc about how my family and others treat me.i'm in a rut and i can't seem to get out of it.i wish i could move back to cali,las vegas or oregon.i hate living in the stl area.the cost of living where i'd rather live is the reason i have not moved already.it's cheap to live where i live.but i'm tired of dealing with thugs and rednecks on a daily bassis.