You all had some really great ideas. Im not sure about the therapy though, as I hate it and have never really cooperated with it before. Im not the most out going person and I dont really like to have to talk to people face to face.

I only have credit and everything is about maxed out or taken away from me so Im kind of with out. Its killing me too as the urges are getting stronger each and every day. I work in retail so I can not not shop. Though my manager has been really fussy with me about it, and thats only because I cant get my work done because I lose focus and I go from home plate to left field so to speak.

I just see more law suits coming and thats scarey, bc if I hadnt been in these phases I could have had a few thousand dollars saved, butnow Im locked into contracts for 2 yrs and such. Sigh

Maybe, I am looking at it all wrong too as being weak instead of being 'ill' as some say, but I just cant see it that way.