I have been diagnosed with both and have been literally in bed for 2 weeks except when I have my T appt, I manage to get there but the rest of the time I'm in bed. I don't make it to group and I don't get errands done. I'm ashamed that I ask my bf to do things, I won't clean or cook. He doesn't deserve this. He puts up with it but I know hes saying why can you get to your T but can't do anything else. Its a struggle, I huff and puff walking to the bus and almost cancel and I get there late but I get there. But the rest of the week I sit in bed, (i'm on disability) and stare at the tv or the tv is on and i'm not even paying attention to it. I haven't even been eating much, I lost weight which I needed to anyway. But I don't eat sometimes until its dinner time and then its a small portion. I can't take this feeling. I have no car and feel stuck in my miserable apartment, I lost my friends, I have a few but they live in another state, my family members, the ones that I actually have a relationship with live out of state also. I moved to be with my bf. My depression took my job, friends, siblings, license, car and my life sucks. My mom died which that and loss of job brought the depression on. I've been miserable for over 4 years and its really weighing me down. I feel hopeless and feel like I can't go on pretty much every day. I hate when I wake up and have to face another day. I'm clingy to my bf because I'm lonely when he's gone. I feel guilty that I'm the way that I am. I miss my old life. I had money because I had a job, I went out places because I had a car, I saw people, had some fun once in a while. Depression took it all away. I feel like what is the point in being here. I have no plan but I'm just miserable. I needed to vent, I can't complain to anyone and I already saw my T. She mentions hospitalization but what can they do. I'm on pristiq 50 mg for about 3 weeks and waiting for results. I don't even want anyone to know I'm on disability, I'm embarrassed about it. Does anyone else feel embarrassed about depression. Does anyone else feel this way. Anjelmarie