Thank you for all your support. It is indeed a devastating disease with no cure. Fortunately his mother does not have it. I have brought up the idea of him getting the test but he really doesn't want to know. I don't blame him. He must be so scared and if the test where possitive it's like receiving a death sentence. It would change the whole course and understanding of his life. Not to mention I would know that I would have to watch the person I wanted to grow old with suffer and deteriorate before my very eyes. I would know that my future holds heartache and immense pain.

When we first got together 7 years ago he slowly warned me about the situation. His mother and I have a close relationship and she once told me that if I couldn't handle it she would understand and never hold it against me. I love him so much I have to remind myself that if you truly love someone you wouldn't leave them because of a possible illness. I mean look at me. I'm bipolar and was hospitalized for a psychosis and he stood by my side the entire time. Visited everyday. Didn't miss a single day and when I came home he took such good care of me. We have discussed children and both of us would be okay with adopting. The thing I can't help thinking is if he took the test and it was negative we could have children of or own. all I can say is that It's a very complex situation. On a side note. I really wish he would get the help and guidance from a professional I feel he desperately needs to cope.

My mantra has always been we will cross that bridge when we come to it but I feel us getting closer to that bridge. I admit that sometimes when I think about it all it scares worries me.