My therapist, who is an AS specialist, has come up with an idea. He wants me to sit down with a police officer in a place of my choosing and tell that person how I feel. My deep distrust of them, the fact that I will cross the street to get away from them, the fact that every time I come within feet of a police officer I feel that I am going to have a full scale melt down. My T has contacts in the police service who actually do this kind of thing. They go out and talk to people who have a fear of the police.

I am both terrified and strangely exhilarated. I will be very honest. I will own up to my behaviour and be forgiven. I will also forgive........and make peace with them so I can live without at least one fear that dominates my life.

Michah