Hello everyone,

I would really appreciate some support here, some explanation or understanding on what could have happened.

Last night (it is morning in Australia now), I lost myself. I don't remember anything since about 8 or 9 pm last night. I am having flashbacks of posting but only very quick flashes lots of colour. I don't remember what happened so I will have to go through my posts to see what I do and don't remember doing last night.

As I said I don't remember anything but DJ told me that I was talking, laughing, making comments and then I changed in a second; I was in sympathy for someone who felt that they just didn't count, weren't important and it really upset me. I was crying and felt so bad for this person (whom I cannot remember because I think I dissociated, the information I have comes from DJ).

I don't remember that happening I don't remember then apparently becoming sexual (I have vaginismus and haven't had intercourse for a very long time), and having intercourse with my partner, but I know I must have because I was bleeding this morning and very very sore.

Who was this? What happened? this is scaring me because I don't understand it can anyone help me please? please?