I haven't slept in 3 days. Overwhelming, incapacitating flashbacks. I don't think I can go to therapy on Monday and I can't figure out if that's a good thing or not. I keep telling myself, everything seems so bad because I haven't slept, but I CAN'T sleep and everything just seems like it's spiraling out of control. I facillate between 1) wanting to call my t and cancel for Monday and 2) wanting to call her and say HELP and 3) just ignoring it and then I start the cycle over again.

I'm falling apart, and I'm not sure why or how or what to do.