(((((((((((( Michah )))))))))))))
I see this situation as no different than facing any other fears and bad experiences anyone has had in their lives. It's part of the healing process. It's part of the learning experiences in life that help us build a better life for ourselves.
I commend you for being willing to face that fear, for being willing to tell them in your own words with support from your T how certain situations trigger certain reactions and for being willing to listen to an officer as well. To forgive and to be forgiven is a huge thing too.
You are a brave individual who is continually working on herself to be the best she can be. I am proud to know you and I support you in your journey.

sabby