I have noticed Sky that when you have very strong feelings about something it is difficult for you to communicate well. It is as though you put up a shield of:"I'll stab them before they can stab me" I am really sorry if I am right about that because it must be painful. I am also sorry if I am wrong because I know you feel misunderstood a lot and I do have trouble understanding what you are getting at at times. I do though trust that you have a good heart and are trying your best. I wish for you to have peace.