I'm glad you are having thoughts about fixing things up. That can get overwhelming, but it's good to have a project to keep away the blues. Just don't overextend yourself. You can always try to do just one little thing every day and gradually everything will come together. Hope you stay in good spirits and have the energy to enjoy life. And don't get down on yourself if your chemistry is out of whack. Ride the wave and let it take you back to the shore of peace and well-being.