Ok, so my boyfriend and I had plans to hang out this weekend. Well, I texted him yesterday and asked if he still planned on coming over. He said that he did plan on coming over last night, but wasn't sure if he was going over his Mother's house today. I told him that I thought he had plans to spend time with me and he already saw his family on Tuesday and for a bit on Friday night so twice already this week. His argument was that he only had like an hour and a half with them on Friday and didn't see all of them on Tuesday. The fact is we have been spending like almost everyday together and then we hadn't been together for the past 3 days. In those days, my bf seemed even more distant than usual. He didn't text me or call as much as he used to so I have felt so lonely and sad. Then, he sprung this on me that he really misses his little sister. It feels like he's choosing his little sister over me and I don't think that's right. He has had time with his sister all his life and he's only known me for like a few months. I also have to wonder why all of a sudden he has changed. He used to want to spend every moment with me and he told me just a few days ago that he feels depressed the moment he leaves me, but his actions now are not showing that anymore.

I am so sad and I keep wondering if his feelings have changed towards me and that he has fallen out of love or never really loved me. We attempted to talk on the phone and work this out last night, but he just kept saying how much he missed his sister and it really upset me and made me feel like he didn't care at all about me so I hung up on him and I haven't heard from him since. I admit that hanging up on him was wrong, but I feel like he's been rude and has insulted me by choosing to spend time with his sister instead of me. I had my time set aside to be with him this weekend and now it's all ruined. I am considering breaking up with him over this because I can not be happy in a relationship where I constantly feel like I have to compete for his attention. I want to be his number 1 and it hurts that he isn't acting like I am right now.

Do you think I am just jumping to conclusions and being unreasonable here? I am depressed and even thinking suicidal thoughts cuz I feel so terribly alone right now. This is difficult for me to understand cuz I have never been too close to my family and I am fine going long periods of time without seeing them. This relationship has gotten very serious though because we have talked about moving in together and marriage even. I don't see how I can take the next step with someone who has to be with their family all the time though.