I know. Would you rather me talk about what I can do because of my condition? I can start a thread called "the bright side of being evil" lol... just kidding... sort of.

And that's true, about my wife. She does love me, even if I can't truly understand that. And she seems happy. Her family hates me though, lol. And sometimes I think my little antics and controlling behavior wears her down. But I don't try. I suppose every relationship has its ups and downs. This is just a ... slightly more challenging obstacle ...

Thank you for not viewing me as inferior. I had no intention of implying that you did, and my sincerest apologies if it seemed that way. And I can feel irritation, even rage. And a state of contentment. The flight and fight response, albeit minimally. And a few others. I mean, I'm not a complete robot, haha. But the more complex ones ... empathy, love, remorse ... no idea what that means.

I think you hit the nail on the head with the reply about the challenge. When I'm in a good mood, I feel like I can take on any challenge and become the nicest and most successful man on the face of the planet, with little consideration of the sincerity of my intentions. But when I'm in a "low mood," as I can't really call it "depressed," I just want to give up the facade and do whatever the hell I want to do. That's when I get in trouble...


It means you're a kind, caring person. And you're awesome. Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to go bask in the glorious rays of your awesomeness.