I am the midst of a severe depression and see no way out. All the anti-dpressants make me speed like amphetamines. If it were not for bensodiazpines (Klonopin, Ativan) I would not be able to sleep, but during the day I have constant anxiety accompanied by nausea, tremors, sweating, nueropathy---as if I were experiencing withdrawal symptoms. My nervous system is a witch turned wide open and won't shut off. I have to force myself to eat as I have no appetite. My life is miserable and I have thoughts of suicide so that this suffering will end. The psychiatrist wants to do ECT, but he needs clearance from a cardiologist who will not give if because I have a condition know as Wolff-Parkinson-White syndrome that I was borm with. I don't want ECT anyway as it wouldn't change my negative thinking or life situation of being almost totally alone in life. I'm not usre how long I can go on this way. The psych doctors have cut me loose as all; they can do is give pills that my system can't tolerate. One psychiatrist said I don't have enough serotonin and I will probably land up killing myself! Can you imagine telling a patient that?
I look on the internet and can't find anyone quite like me, but I imagine they are many somewhere that can give me suggestions to escape this nightmare.