Today has been rough. Constant tension in body, muscle twitches, strange feelings, clenched jaw. Just out of nowhere and for at least 8 hours so far. I think all the doctors around here think that you are automatically going to abuse any benzo. So I am really just trying to get something like seroquel. My psychiatrist is against it so I guess I just have to deal with it. I don't know. Hopefully the Effexor helps. Also I am starting school again soon. I am really hoping that the routine will straighten me out. It is just getting difficult to fight for myself anymore. I am convinced that I am dying and so am just waiting for dementia or whatever to set in and then die.