Melissa...my hubby going through exactly what you are...excepts it, then doesn'r except it. Ignores it and doesn't want to talk about it. It's sad because he finally pinpointed out why he's been struggling for 20 years (undiagnosed), but is mostly in denial at the same time. I've had a few scary hypomanic weeks with him. He's cyclical (summer hypomanic) fall/winter months (depressed). I dont know which one is harder for him or me. Hang in there.