Thanks Thinker. I see myself as strong. I also see where choas can come from. I stay away from chaos when I see it. But when it is around it, I look at it, I try and balance things again. I read somewhere about Maslow's heiarchy and how survival mode is at the bottom and self actualization at the top. Right now I am at the bottom. I know I will take a few steps up up once the bug killer guy kills my little vampires. As long as I know it is temporary, I can deal. Thanks for being here for me.