I understand it is a long and painful process at times.
I am fortunate to not have any obvious childhood issues to work through. But there are obviously things I never learnt growing up, which are now affecting me as a young adult.
In our last session T pointed out that I tend to just run away from a situation that makes me feel uncomfortable. Or that I have a really serious issue of being alone. I just take a sleeping tablet and block those feelings. Running away from being angry, or being alone.
Yesterday I was incredibly tired after a LONG weekend, and I had a temper-tantrum. I very nearly hit my boyfriend, cos all I wanted to do was go home and sleep. I know it was not an appropriate manner to deal with the issue, but I actually "Lost it".
So Shadow - I think we have similar issues to work through.
My homework for the next while (T is away for 3-4 weeks; eek!) is to chart any emotions I have, make notes of the situation, analyse where the distortion comes into play... (I have the notes written down somewhere, sorry I cannot remember off-hand)
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"I'd rather attempt to do something great and fail than to attempt to do nothing and succeed. Robert H. Schuller"
Current dx: Bipolar Disorder Unspecified
Current Meds: Epitec (Lamotrigine) 300mg, Solian 50mg, Seroquel 25mg PRN, Metformin 500mg, Klonopin prn
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