((((((((((((((((((((em))))))))))))))))))))))

truthfully? sometimes it's no more than pride. I picture "them" having the satisfaction of my state, and get better to spite "them".

actually, it's different things at different times...sometimes it's my kids and little man. sometimes i actually believe that i'm worth being happy. t is starting to work.

i'm here if you need to talk. don't hesitate to pm.

kd