thanks for the replies, you guys. Wepow, you are so articulate and powerful in what you write. Thank you for sharing that with us.

I slept. It's amazing how much a little (or a lot) sleep helps. I knew that when I posted on Sat but I still felt like I was just on the edge of going out of control, and was so afraid sleep wouldn't come. But, it did, and I'm ok. I'm going to see my T later this morning.

thank you again for your support, I really needed that.