I can totally relate, don’t you just hate this FU disease. The hypomania is awesome with feelings of total control of your life. Nothing can stop a sense of confidence and security. Unfortunately, when the depression hits hard, it’s extremely difficult to see the light at the end of the tunnel. How long does your depression last? Mine can last up to 2 weeks or 1 month of mixed episodes.
My advice is to talk to your T or find other like me who can relate. For me, what helps the depression, talk to people like us, who truly understand your state of mind!!!
I have been down the same road before and you’re not alone, most all of us here, have been there before!!!!!!
Take care,
Pam 
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Sometimes I am high and sometimes I am low.
Everyone around me but I am always alone.
Hour by hour and week by week,
I deal with myself and I never feel complete.
I want to be normal; I want to be sane,
No matter what I do, I always feel the pain.
“Stop the mania and fight back,
It’s all in your head”
I wish I could do it; I would rather go to bed.
Sometimes I am high and sometimes I am low,
I wish they could see me, so I won’t be alone. 
By Pam
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