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Aug 02, 2010, 10:51 AM
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Member Since: Jul 2010
Location: Ohio
Posts: 37
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I HATE BPD! I feel like its controling and ruining my life! I would give anything to wake up tomorrow and actually feel in control of my life. I feel like I'm making all the wrong choices. I'm second guessing my choice of college degrees. I even second guess my religious beliefs. I'm always afraid of picking the wrong thing. I just want to be happy, but I feel like I dont even know what happiness means to me, so how can I pick what will make me happy.
I'm in therapy, but I'm afraid even that's not going to be enough. I don't feel like she really understands me or even knows much about BPD. She says she doesnt like to use DBT, but is willing to learn it with me if I'm interested, but I can't get my hands on the DBT workbook or whatever. So I'm just frustrated. My T is a bit older and I'm not sure if she can connect with me on a level to make her understand what I'm dealing with.
I dunno, I feel like I'm ranting here and still not getting out what I want to say..I'm just frustrated and what all this drama and crap to go away!
~Grumbles~
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