I have different perspective than yours lostandlonely!

It's not that you attract these types of guys, it's just simply you haven't met the right one.....

Two years ago, I was dating this guy called A. He was so handsome and I could see how many girls are after him....but, I was so uncomfortable in his presents....I could have felt something.....I don't know how to describe it......He was just a recipe for disaster....I could not even seat next to him without constant changing my positions.....I thought I'm going crazy....and he was telling me why are you moving without any reason.....he was right, but the point was that I was just not comfortable with him.....my mind would not stop wondering....I was feeling he will hurt me....and of course he did....when we broke up, it didn't take him more than couple of weeks to go with another girl....I don't want to tell you how devastated I was when I went to the dance class and I saw him coming to the class with the new girl....I could not breathe!!!! and I'm not in my 20s....I was 35 at that time....and now 37!!!!
Anyway, long story short....it didn't take him even couple of months being with that girl, and they got into fight or whatever, then he started dating that girl's best girlfriend who was her roommate....when I found out....I thought, how lucky I was to not have him.....I would go crazy if the guy go after my girlfriend.....that's too much....
to say all these....I spend more than a year wondering why? I wrote a lot here....I spend so many nights not being able to sleep.....constantly thinking about him.....It felt my brain got a virus that is repeating itself.....
But then I stand up, I told myself, there is nothing wrong being alone.....It might be not that great and awesome, but still I will survive and it will be good....That's how I start going to gym, hiking again, swimming, dancing and meditating.....working on my thought process, trying so hard to stop thinking about him....and I succeed....although it took me a long time.....
So, just be patient and try to stop all these negative thoughts and accept the life as it is and have hope in your heart.....give yourself time....and don't worry about that number called age.....
write down to us, we will support you....and we will love you no matter what you say here.....
with love
marjan