Hello butterflyeffect. I'm sorry to hear you relapsed. I can relate to your struggle. Although mine is not cocaine, but I do relapse every now and then. I fight with smoking marijuana and I know it is nowhere near as hardcore as cocaine. I feel guilty every time I do it and swear to myself I'll never do it again. I always seem to disappoint myself again. Anyway, I just wanted to let you know you are not alone in your struggles and I hope this time you can conquer it for good. I'm rooting for you.