thanks Sanity....ya, it was a really good date....We went to science center to see Mummies....yes....dead people
I emailed him on Saturday morning telling him to call me to plan the sunday....he called Saturday evening, he still wanted to go for fly, but because of the fire, the airport was not still open....he said he will find out on Sunday morning....I took my chance and told him why not to do something else....he said I thought you like flying, I said of course I love too, but it seems we are not sure about it, we can go for it another day....then I said we can go to a movie or go for science center exhibition.....he said he likes to go for the science center....I got online and I thought I will get the tickets....very strange, I don't usually do that specially int he second date to threat the guy with tickets....hehehe....but I thought I should change my attitudes and behaviors.....he doesn't have to pay for everything....that's not fair! Anyway, we went to the science center, and after that we went for dinner.....first we wanted to have dinner in my neighborhood, then he said lets go to Malibu beach, it's just 30 minutes drive from my home.....we had our dinner there.....then we kissed....it was just awesome.....the best part is that I don't feel uncomfortable with him....I feel me....I don't act, I tell him about my past and my thoughts and he just listen without judging me....Then he dropped me off at home....I didn't invite him over.....he hugged me and told me how much he's attracted to me....I told him I'm so happy it feels I found my best friend!
We didn't plan for a next date.....I didn't say anything.....I just want to live day by day....and I don't want to get over excited....I know myself, I can get obsess and crazy....no need for those....I need my night sleep and relax life....I'm not a kid anymore to have all those thunders in my thoughts and emotions.....I need to be master of my emotions.....I don't want to be slave of my uncontrollable emotions.....I know how it can drag me to darkness and sadness.....

again thanks for all the support
Marjan