thank you Marjan. It's just so hard because he rocked my world. I was so attracted to him, loved every minute with him (even when we were doing nothing), felt so comfortable with him and enjoyed his company, and he made me feel so desired and that he truly liked me exactly for the person I am. We had a mutual chemistry and connection that I hadn't felt in years...key word is it was mutual. I could feel that he felt it too which is why this is so out of left field. I am so afraid I will never feel this again because I hadn't in so long, and I don't fall easily for anyone, and that is why I thought this was different and special. I could see a future with him and now I am just devastated and feel so stupid and fooled and bitter and angry. I still don't know why he broke my heart and never will because I feel he is gone for good. How could he do this to me if he truly cared for me? Because he obviously didn't.