Wow, all these words! Words, words, words! I am definitely an action person. I have frequently jumped in only half knowing what was going on, scared as hell, but knowing that this was the only way I was going to resolve my issue.

Pachy, it is like you are walking and walking and walking around a pool and you won't get in but you are constantly contemplating it. In addition you are talking, talking, talking about the presumed temperature of the pool, what it would feel like, all the possible consequences of your decisions, etc. I would be the one who would sneak up behind and push you in!

I understand what you have been through (only what you have told us of course!) and how triggered that you get, though...........